Too Fast!

The last few weeks I have been frantically planning Ruby Mae's first birthday.  Of course I am making it way bigger than it needs to be.  But, it's my last first birthday to plan.  I am really having a hard time with how fast she has grown up.  She is walking and we are sleep training right now.  I think half the problem with the sleeping issue is me.  I don't want to let go of that rocking time we had.  But I know it's going to be a huge benefit for both of us.  I am also having a hard time with the fact of not having any more babies.  Daniel is done, and I still want to have another.  However, I know I would be insane to have a third.  I am already in over my head as it is.  I guess I am asking for the Lords peace to spread over me about the blessings I do have in my life, and to cherish my little girls each and every day.  I know there are fun time ahead....it's just one of those chapters in my life that's hard to close.